What about us?
I generally try to avoid whining and sniveling when I miss out on something, but since this is my blog I figure I can whine and bitch all I want. *grin*
My main gripe right now is over how hard it is to find suitable partners. If all I wanted was a good roll in the hay I could probably think of a dozen people I could call, but finding someone to be a member of our poly family has proven to be much harder.
To give a little background info, I’ve been married for seven glorious years to a dominant and recently we were joined by another dominant who’s just starting out on his journey. My husband and I have a power exchange relationship, but Duckie and I do not. Neither of the guys are bisexual, and sometimes it’s a little hard for a girl to keep up with all the testosterone in the house. What we’d like to find is an intelligent, articulate, masochistic, and submissive female whom we all like and get along with.
Needle in a haystack? yeah….
Our best prospect that we pinned our hopes on seemed to be a perfect fit. Then she decided that staying home safe with mommy was a better bet than venturing out into the wide world without a safety net. She’d just gotten out of college and apparently isn’t ready to face the real world and grow up.
Our second prospect is someone we met somewhat recently; she’s very interested in the erotic hypnosis that is Pete’s newest kink, and is masochistic and adventurous enough to satisfy me. Plus she’s cute, blonde, and has a nice little bubble butt that just begs to be spanked. Problem is that she’s decided that a mutual friend is going to be her new boyfriend. I guess we need to branch out away from the college-kid set.
We’ve met several couples as a family, and many many individuals, but invariably they all decide that we’re not what they’re looking for. To make it worse, while Duckie is perfectly willing to be involved in group activities, Pete isn’t. I’m faced with the choice of none of us getting to play, or leaving Pete at home while Duckie and I go out to have fun. Neither option is really all that great a choice. What I’d really like is to find a female submissive who fits into our family and can be there for Pete during those times that Duckie and I go off to play, and can be there for Duckie when Pete and I need time alone.
As I watch more and more of our friends find play partners, life partners, and best friends with benefits I try to be supportive and happy for them. I am happy for them, but I can’t help but feel the flash of jealousy that rears it’s head and asks, “What about us?”.
Oh, Ghod, do I know what you’re going through. We would love to have a girl just for friendship and play, but it’s just so difficult to meet them; seems they are all looking for “the One” and have no wish to meet “the Two”. :-J
Seriously, we’d like to be able to date a girl, just as I would if I was single…not just rush into a BDSM triad – but there doesn’t seem to be anyone interested.
So anyway, it’s not just you.
(Oh, and I’m oriole on FetLife, btw.)